The Ghost of Darkness

Hello

2008-09-26T17:55:03Z

Hey guys, it's been a while since I've written anything. I've pretty much altogether stopped using live journal... but I'm just checking in to say I'm alive. I'M ALIVE!!! k.. I think that'll do it. If you are still friends with me and want to hang out... give me a call.

<3 Chris

PS - The cake is a lie...

I am alive

2008-06-26T23:07:24Z

and I just bought another guitar >< <3 it haha

update

2007-09-14T05:01:17Z

not much new, still single and hating it. working.... and stuff. On the bright side i'm building a robot!!! :p

HELLOGOODBYE LYRICS

2007-07-23T17:36:18Z

Here's one for you!
"I Saw It On Your Keyboard"

There exists a melody
That just might change your mind
Oh, if only I knew the key
To sing to make you mine

And then I saw it on your keyboard
And you saw it on my sleeve
I never knew a heart existed
Outside of make believe
Until I read it on your keyboard
I knew at least I might just have a chance
To catch a shooting star

There exists a star above
That always steals my stare
And there exists a star on stage
That never seems to care

And then I saw it on your keyboard
And you saw it in my eyes
I didn't mean to scare you
You just seem really nice
And when I read it on your keyboard
I knew at least I might just have a chance
To catch a shooting star

darkspector @ 2007-06-30T03:45:00

2007-06-30T10:48:39Z

hmmm... things get awkward, not really awkward.. but how do I say this... why do I always seem to want what I can't have... and when I seem to have what I want... it doesn't stay. Oh well such is life. We move on and eventually we get what we want. Good things come to those who wait, or so they say. :D Here's to better times :p

darkspector @ 2007-06-28T12:36:00

2007-06-28T19:51:37Z

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darkspector @ 2007-06-27T11:49:00

2007-06-27T18:50:30Z

Things aren't so bad... little slow and boring... but not bad. I want that excitement back though

darkspector @ 2007-06-23T03:46:00

2007-06-23T10:52:02Z

Unfortunately for me it's back to the slums... little heartache again. The girl I was happy with and really liked just told me that she doesn't want to be in a relationship right now. When she got back from europe that she didn't feel like she did when she left. It's kinda depressing because the person who helped me out of my depression kinda made me depressed again. I'd like to say it's ok and at least I didn't invest much into it, but I kinda did and maybe that's where I made my mistake. I mean i'm not devastated and I sorta felt this coming. It's just dissapointing and frustrating because I was very happy with her. It's not her fault she feels this way though. I guess you just have to live with what life throws at you. Life goes on and stuff.... it's just nice to know that you have someone there and now I don't again.

Kori... here's too you, thanks at least for all the good times we had, as short as it was. At least we're still friends, but I don't know if it'll be the same, it probably won't so I hope... that maybe sometime we have another chance because I feel that what was there was great and amazing. Well, anyways...

Night ;_;

darkspector @ 2007-06-15T17:43:00

2007-06-16T00:44:45Z

If you wanna see some action,
You have got to be the center of attraction!

darkspector @ 2007-06-13T12:59:00

2007-06-13T20:07:56Z

Alright so, now she's back... funny maybe not so funny but different. She said she was thinking while she was gone and she was saying she though we were moving a bit too fast for her right now. But it's not like she didn't want it because she does, but she just wants to take it slow. So things are going back a few notches and that's ok, I'm perfectly ok with that it's just I think i'm letting things get to me. She's got college stuffs and she going to do semester in japan and stuff. And i'm all happy and stuff for her, but doesn't much sound like she's got much room for a relationship. Which I totally respect, i'm just hoping that i'm not going to become too attached and when it comes down to it she will choose whatever comes up over me. She doesn't want anymore long distance relationships and from here to japan I would consider long distance. Although it's only for a semester I can see where she's coming from. But like I said it's probably just all in my head and I'm getting too ahead of myself anyways... who knows if we'd even be together that long.. we still got the whole summer ahead of us. 1 step at a time buddy... LoL All I can say right now is I really like this girl and I hope for the best <3

In other news we got tuxes picked out for Leif's wedding they are gonna be hot :D So now I need to start thinking of a toast. It's my duty... oh yeah and a bachelor party... I guess that's my job too! MMmm naked womens boooyah! Sorry Elisabeth.... it's gotta be done :p

darkspector @ 2007-06-01T19:58:00

2007-06-02T02:59:34Z

Reformatting and reinstalling windows blows!!! but I guess it's how you make a nice tidy computer... Xp

darkspector @ 2007-05-29T10:52:00

2007-05-29T17:52:57Z

OH NOESSS!!!!! i'm going to be alone for 2 weeks!! AHHHHHH

It's ok.. LoL I can't wait till she gets back :DDDD WEEEEE

darkspector @ 2007-05-25T14:01:00

2007-05-25T21:02:25Z

got a hot date tonight... owww!!! :D gonna dress to impressssss

darkspector @ 2007-05-21T11:27:00

2007-05-21T18:30:59Z

Everything is turning around. Feelings are changing. Things are happening. I'm really happy... things are falling into place. I couldn't ask for anything more right now. :D

darkspector @ 2007-05-17T10:52:00

2007-05-17T17:53:11Z

The 2nd night of little to no sleep... and well.. I couldn't be happier :D <3 This girl is good times :p

darkspector @ 2007-05-16T14:25:00

2007-05-16T21:26:57Z

Yay i get to hang out again today. I can't tell you guys how much better this makes me feel. I'm starting to stand up for myself and just... i'm really coming around.

<3

woah

2007-05-16T07:56:30Z

So.. suprised... i'm actually in a pretty good mood. Visited a friend I haven't seen in a while :D so YAY. Good times had by all

Hooray for hair :D

2007-05-15T06:19:28Z

darkspector @ 2007-05-14T18:30:00

2007-05-15T01:31:13Z

I'm so excited for the coming weekend I get to see leif and elisabeth YAY!!!

darkspector @ 2007-05-11T15:15:00

2007-05-11T22:15:51Z

and again with the YAY's :)

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2007-05-10T18:06:39Z

ok im' bored again.... bah, this blows :p

YAY!

2007-05-09T22:01:53Z

Yes! YES!

darkspector @ 2007-05-07T23:01:00

2007-05-08T06:07:00Z

I'm a fucking pussy I swear! I'm feeling much bertt now.. MUCH better. Went on a walk to the mall, checked out the japanese common store... it was awesome! best shop in the mall hands down! Got some orange julius... walked around, walked across the street and got some pho. Then walked back home. All in all it was about 4 miles or so of walking. It was definately good times. I'm starting to feel a bit better.

:D although things are good :) so yeah

I really hope things stay this way... because I need my blood pressure to go down.. LoL

darkspector @ 2007-05-07T13:52:00

2007-05-07T21:02:31Z

You ever feel like you've bitten of more than you can chew?

There are always ALWAYS going to be things that you wish you could undo. But the fact of the matter is, once something is done, it's done. And you can wish and hope all you want that you could take back what you said or what did you did but you can't. And the pain doesn't go away, you will always feel it, you may forget about it, but if it comes up again it comes right back. All you can do is move on and hope for the best. That's all we can do as human beings. We all make mistakes... some so much bigger than others....

Such is life, time heals all, you reap what you sow.... everything happens for a reason...

or does it?

darkspector @ 2007-05-07T12:15:00

2007-05-07T19:16:05Z

Citizen Cope - Sideways

You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away